your favourite girl

2009-08-28T10:11:00.000-07:00

HEY PPL , I HAVE SWITCHED TO LIVEJOURNAL ! DO VIEW MY LIVEJOURNAL AND COMMENT IT THERE . THANKS ! :D
& DO RELINK ME !

MY LIFEJOURNAL

bye blogger .
thanks for accompanying me for 2 years . (:

2009-08-19T10:06:00.000-07:00

i want to blog smth before i sleep now ! ^^
haha . the thing is , ..........................

i cant wait for tmr morning laaa !! :D really so excited leh . scared i cant get to sleep . so happy & gan dong . hahaha ! you all dunno wad i talking about right ?! hehehe . shh , secret secret =x i wont tell you all first until it is time . cause i also not sure when or if it will happen . haha . scared only i think too much. haha . anyway , im really really happy for last few days . thanks so so much (: for being here with me and everything . & keep making me laugh the whole day .hahaha. esp the way you copy ppl talk . damn funny . hahaha . thinking now , i also will laugh la . haha . thanks (:

p/s

missess !! (: really .
bug =p

2009-08-16T07:03:00.000-07:00

fucking sad . never know i will feel this sad . never know i will get this hurt . never know i had gone this deep. this feeling just wont go off . and i know , it wont go off so easily . tell me what am i suppose to do now . just tell me . those words you said to her just keep reappearing in my mind every few minutes . those words you said to me , after i found the truth hurt me even more . saying sorry and not getting angry would have made me feel better . maybe its my fault , i should not have put in 100% in a relationship . & now , getting myself bruised all over . even if everything its ok now , those words you said constantly appear in my mind . the hurt you given me , had such great impact & it will not go off for now . hearts aching badly . wad should i do ? i cant get over this myself . hais . will the same thing happen again ?

one thing i know for sure now . - karma bites .

2009-08-13T10:54:00.000-07:00

today is our second month !!! ^^ hahaha .

we can last up to now im alr happy. hehs .

quite fun today . (: shall blog about our second month the next time i post again .

hehehe . cause im going to sleep now ! ~

good nights ! :D

love you love you love you .

2009-08-13T10:09:00.000-07:00

i got so many things to update !!! but im so lazyyyyyyyyyy to blog alr ! hhaha . shall sum up tues things . ^^

tuesday , after sch went down meet my dearest girl ! met her at tampines . she treated me eat pu tien ! hahahaha . so sweet right she ! ^^ hahaa . halfway while eating , something happened . she found out some stuffs and she broke down . felt so sad for her ! :( comforted her and had h2h talk with her .

girl , be brave ok ? forget about him and carry on with life . rmb all that i told you . guys are like this , if you wanna love them , you must learn to take the pain ok ! i dont want keep seeing you get hurt and played with by him alr . forget about him , and think about me better ok !! ^ tee-hee . & to that guy , one more time i hear that you toy or lie to her , or hurt her again , i wont let you off . dont take her for granted & dont think she is good to bully ok . if you have no feelings for her , just let her go . stop playing her around . you understand ? really , i wont let you off if i found out you make her cry like this again .

so , afterwards , E called . said they were at tm too . ask us go find them . so we went up arcade and look for he and his friends . then after awhile , went down mac and slack awhile and then went home !!

pictures with my bitch ! (:

2009-08-06T09:45:00.000-07:00

i miss you so much . so much :(

2009-07-27T11:02:00.000-07:00

hahaha , played with my webcam ! lol .

im not zi lian ok , its once in awhile thing ! hahaha !
girls ma ~ =p

hahhaa , see all this picture i wanna laugh also sia . heh .

ok , actually i wanna say ,

i realised that i have not been going sch for like 2 weeks plus alr !!!! how ?! every week only go one time like that . ahh , dunno whats happening again sia ! like the feel to study gone again . im damn scared i will repeat my past mistakes :( this few weeks , kept staying out at night, never go home, never go school . hais . i dunno whats happening la seriously . i like cant manage my own time properly sia . damn irritated la . alot of my friends did adviced me . but i dunno why im still like this leh ! how how ?! i dont wanna have regrets again . i can imagine how disappointed my father must have been in me . he didnt really scold me for what i have done . feel really guilty sia :( im sorry daddy, i know you are reading this . (: hais . okay , i really promise myself here that i WILL go sch from today alr ! i seriously wont disappoint those who care anymore . promise promise promise ! hope that its not too late also , that i wont be retain or get expel :( must work hard le . for my wei lai . heh hehs . & also , wanna say sorry to john , cause think my dad sort of scolded him . thought he influence me not to go school . but is really not his fault at all =/

JIAYOU MICHELLE !

work work work hard okay ?!

OYA , & OCH AT NIGHT VERYYYY SCARYYYYYYY SIAAAAAAAAAAA !!!!!!

p/s

i feel so empty within .

am i not worth you treating me like how you should ?

im so hurt !

2009-07-27T09:17:00.000-07:00

21st july was john's birthday !

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SWEETY ! ^^

so, around 2 plus , went down pasir ris collect his present first . haha . dragged until quite long and i thought i was going to be late to meet him ! somemore the bus wait damn long sia . was damn anxious that time cause his bithday and i dont wanna him to wait for me quite long and end up he not happy . haha . he keep calling me , and i dont dare ans also , cause scared later he nag nag . haha ! so decided to cab down yishun alr . then when i on cab , i called him , and he said he still at home sia ! angry leh . waste money take cab la !
so , met him at yishun and pass him his present . hehe ! see him smile when recieved the present i also happy . hahaha ! at first i damn scared he wont like what i gave . luckily he like. tee-hee . (: so , went over northpoint arcade , played photohunt again , haha ! then met up his friends and went kfc to eat . afterwards , went over 213 there and slack with his friends until night. haha . then midnight some of us went over safra and play billard . and then went to eat . hahaa . his friends damn funny , keep down there playing at the coffeeshop . haha . then after that his another friend came and tell us that they play until fight . then john rushed there and stopped them . after that , found out they only acting only sia ! lol ! they fight until damn real sia . until got police come . luckily nothing happened . lol . then went back 213 there slack again until morning . then cabbed over john house later on . and went home around evening . haha . shaggg ~
i hope you are really happy with what i gave you ,and i wish you had a very happy 18th birthday here although there was not much celebration ! :D love ya !

the present (:

the cupcakes(:
cookies. look ugly here . haha

he act one shy . =p

act one shy again . =p

duuno wad fuck he doing, haha !

p/s , learn to appreciate. (:

2009-07-22T23:18:00.000-07:00

ah , super lazy to blog alr. haha . alot things happen siaaa ~ haha . anyway , wanna blog on our first month , met up with darling quite late that day . went over douby ghaut , watched ice age 2 . haha . the show damn funny la ! haha . he brought me over to crystal jade to eat. haha . he so nice ! i ordered alot siaaa , cannot finish . =x luckily dont have to pay for food wastage , haha ! the bill come i think 50 over sia . haha . so so ex ! haha . some more the food not say very nice . hehe . see the food ! :D

played basket ball at the arcade also . haha ! i want show off our score ! =D
SEE SEE !

pro right ? hehs !

p/s

wont cherish until we lose it .

2009-07-14T12:21:00.000-07:00

im tired . i thought i can stand the way you joke and played around some times , but it gets over alr . over to the extend that i cant take it . to many things happen lately , you cant blame me if i lost trust in you . you make me feel like im alone , its only me here and there's no you . it always seem like im at fault . im keeping everything to myself , cause i dont wanna have quarrels with you . bet you dont know how i am feeling all this while . if you even care , ask around my friends , i told them all i could have said . i dont know , why are you doing this , im not sure if thats your character or are you being on purpose . but , i have been good all along , havent i ? tell me , just where had i done wrong to deserve all this ? i done everything i could have to you . i wanted you to feel that there's always someone here for you . but guess i didnt manage the way i wanted it to be . i dunno how you feel , you never once told me . you just kept every single thing to yourself . its being unfair to me . now , i cant even understand why did you even started with me . you once said this , " nice to bully you . " thinking back everything , maybe you are right , im nice to bully , cause you took my goodness for granted . but , i dunno why i still stick with you till now . maybe cause , i know im happy with you . but i know , soon , all would be over .

how much will it matter to ,
you if im going to turn my back against you ?

2009-07-05T18:57:00.000-07:00

saturday ! john darling brought me to watch fireworks with his dad ! haha . thought it was some NDP preview at first , but it wasnt ! haha . it was some american national day or smth . so went down yishun meet him , then went down woodland meet his dad and cabbed down to the place . (: haha . the place , full of americans la . haha . felt alittle uneasy at first , but luckily got him beside me ! (: hehe . & the food there is super expensive . only ate one large hot dog and it cause 8 bucks . haha . anyway , did enjoyed myself . the fireworks damn nice sia ! haha . lasted about 10 min like that. hahaha . slacked over at his place and followed him cut hair also .

i saw something which disappointed me . ( hais . nvm , i dont wanna probe into this matter . i dont wanna unecessary quarrels . as long as you are happy . lets just hope , it wont happen again . regardless of anything , i just want the truth from you , cause it hurts to hear your love's lies .

can you see the american flag ?

darling and his dad .(:

the fireworks ! (:
chio right .

p/s
one more week . ^^
iloveyou .

2009-07-05T10:55:00.000-07:00

lazy to post about details . so shall just post some pictures i took up (: haha . anyway , watch transformer 2 with my dearest girl . the movie is a must watch ! :D super nice , you wont regret .

my lovely nisa . (:

went out with my dearest girl on friday ! how sad , sharmaine couldnt join us ! better go out soon with us okay ! miss you guys alot la :( walked and shop all around town . haha . had lots of fun with her that day . (: love ya .

haha !

2009-07-01T09:35:00.001-07:00

why blogger cant upload pics when i feel like blogging now ?!?!?! shit . shall blog again tmr . first , i wanna sincerly say sorry here to YJ , for disappointing you again and again .
i wont do it again . really really .

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woohoo ! few more days is our first month ! hehs . like so fast ley . =D cant wait . hehe .

and in about 2 week time is darling's 18th birthday also ! hahahaha .
ahh , thinking how should i celebrate & what should i get for him !
hehe . i want him to have a unforgettable bday la (: but i dunno wad i should do. =/ ideas ?
he's so cute ystd . he said , he wanna go cine outside smoke first . cause he finally can smoke legally and wont get caught . LOL .

shall upload more when blogger can upload pics again . (:

2009-07-01T05:59:00.000-07:00

last saturday was luk chung and jasmine birthday ! haha .
WISH BOTH OF YOU A VERY HAPPY BITHDAY HERE ! :D
went meet john darling at cine first , then went over somerset mrt to meet the luk chung and the rest . (: head over luk chung's house to celebrate their birthday . haha .
some of the pictures (:

the two birthday girls !

the cake .

2009-06-28T10:05:00.000-07:00

Dead At 83

From Heart Attack

LOLOL !
im going to live that long ? o.O

2009-06-26T15:35:00.000-07:00

out with glenda , john and another guy . (forgot his name) . supposed to meet them around 2 . but as usual , i was late . LOL . so met them at bugis around 4 . ate and shopped , then bused over to fareast . some thing happened on the way to fareast again :( made him angry , but this time is really not my fault lor . gosh , he whole trip dont wanna talk to me sia ! made me so upset throughout the day . no mood to even shop when i was at fareast . =.= so , we left fareast early and mrt-ed down marsling . we only patched up again later on , after he send me a msg on how he feel . haha . ahh , so touched when i read the msg . didnt know he cared so much . haha ! but dunno wad he say true not . =.= heh . anyway , watched la pi xiao xin . freaking hilarious and cute . hahaha .

oya , saw sharmaine dearest at bugis today ! so long didnt see her . super happy ! haha . meet up soon nar bitch . miss you hell lots . & i promise wont , wont reply you all the msges alr ! haha miss hanging out with you guys so much ! text me soon girl . (:

oh , i changed my handphone number , and bought a new phone . happy la . thanks dad ! (:

pictures .

candid ok ! i look super funny sia .

p/s ,
michelle , hope everything turns out fine .

2009-06-22T06:59:00.000-07:00

my laptop spoil sia ! need one week plus to service :( :( so , met my friend early early morning , and lend me laptop ! hahaha . thanks thanks thanks so much ! ^^ actually today reach sch very early de . first time sia ! but in the end , went eat mac breakfast and end up late again . lol . reached sch , classmates said got people in our sch , my block , some more my level kena H1N1 sia ! LOL . then some classes got send back home . haha .

met up with john darling after class . went jp walk walk . haha . as usual , went arcade and play photo hunt . haha ! addicted to this game sia . lol . around 5 , went over sbw meet weisheng bro . something really bad happened . hais . totally make me no mood . sorry weisheng , finally met up with you then i like this . hais . just this incident between us can totally change my mood sia . i know , its my fault . i should have told you earlier i was meeting him . just one week plus only , & dunno if your trust for me have dropped :( your msges made me so upset throughout the entire night . less than two weeks and you are alr disappointed in me . i know its me , i aint good at all .

you give me a feeling that strong , never felt like this for long .

im not sure if what i am doing is right .

at the very least , now i know , the feeling of losing someone close .

never felt so weak & helpless before .

i dont wanna feel this way again .

michelle stay strong , dont fall again .

2009-06-16T11:42:00.001-07:00

tuesday , met john darling at khatib mrt , came to fetch me to sch . decided to have mac breakfast at causeway point . haha . afterwards , (shant tell you what happen ). haha . so , slacked throughout the day , and went down yishun see him play basketball with his friends . haha . afterwards , ate at kfc and he send me home ! (: he reached home , told me he having fever sia . must be not enough sleep nar , felt so bad , shouldnt ask him fetch me to sch early morning :( haha . told him not to fetch me to sch this morning alr , and guess what he said ? " i dont want you carry the heavy bag go sch . " haha ! dunno true not leh . =p lol . and so , this morning , going to sch , he asked me , " want meet ? " then i thought he was going to surprise me at khatib mrt sia ! in the end , never come . haha . disappointed ley . i think too much alr . lol ! but in the end , met him at wl mrt . haha . fetch me to sch and he went back home ! at first i quite gan dong leh , cause he sick still come , then in the end he tell me say he very bored nothing to do so come send me . hahaha ! stupid nar . anyway , hope you recover soon ! rmb drink more water and rest more ! dont go out alr k silly (: haha . love ya many many !

see , he so sick :( hehs

look so shag in all the pics below . -.-
shall post it up only cause <3 is in it

p/s
hope this could go on and never stop .

2009-06-14T20:10:00.000-07:00

watched these two shows recently tgt with john ! (: haha . dragged me to hell was pretty good , but super scary luh ! got one part in the show, john jumped up sia , haha ! but he say is i frighten him first de . -.- lol ! act act ah . haha . i know you are scared too okay ! haha . but many parts in the show is me practically keep getting scared luh . haha . my heart like weak only i know , very easily frighten la ! haha . but still , my love to watch horror show never stops . tee-hee . =p ghost of girl friend was alright only . would rate it , 6/10 ! haha .

so ya , shall talk about my outing with john <3 . haha, he wanna me post about it here . haha ! so , last two days , went out with him . haha . went marina square the first day . and watched dragged me to hell . it was the first day the show was released and the cinema was like almost packed . afterwards , walk walk and he send me back to pasir ris . haha ! ask him dont send still send , poor thing , have to take train all the way back to woodland . haha . silly nar . you come shift house nearer to pasir ris la .=p hehs . second day , went vivo walk walk and shop for few hours . wanted watch movie at first but the timing not nice , so decided to ton and watch midnight show . haha ! bus-ed over causeway point and watch ghost of girlfriend past . haha . guys should go watch that show ! haha . then ton and slack the whole next day . didnt go home for 2 days , and my hp also no batt . lol ! sorry to make my parents and some friends worried .

& silly john surprised me with something . haha ! guess what was it ?!

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see see the necklace ? haha ! he never tell me he bought something for me the previous night la . haha . & he wore it for me . haha ! it may not be anything big to all of you , but to me , it was everything . i was really happy and touched laa . haha . thanks thanks john ! (: & he ton at yishun last night and came my house to fetch me to sch today morning . haha ! dunno why im always feeling happy with him around . haha . you give me a special feeling different from the rest . no matter how bad you think you are , im still gonna keep the promise i made to you. haha . silly him , so fast jiu bully me on msn just now . i know you dont wanna me go down later , but dont worry nar , nothing's gonna happen ok ? & i wont hong other ppl de nar , so dont worry , & i think is you who will hong lor . =/ must rmb wad your ah ma say to you ley . ' hold me tight and stay long ' =p haha ! imy so much silly . (:

p/s
let me know im right again .
iloveyou.

2009-06-14T08:10:00.000-07:00

first , i wanna say sorry to weisheng bro ! i know you are reading this , haha . first , sorry that i havent been meeting you lately .second , sorry for not calling you back each time i say i will return your call . third , sorry for making you worried today ! if anything i did made you feel neglected , im sorry . i didnt meant it . thanks for the thought of rushing down all the way to pasir ris to meet me today despite alr so late and you have to still catch the last bus back to sbw . but thanks god you didnt come down cause i would feel so bad . haha . will meet you some time soon okay ? haha . oya , and i wanna post something up . designed by weisheng last week .

hahaha ! NC 16 AH ! =p
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the female's

the males 's

hahaha ! i know its kind of stupid la .
but i thought it was pretty funny and creative when you started making it .
lmao !

second , i also wanna say sorry to willy . didnt manage to meet up with you on your last day . he wanna me post about him going ns so i shall do it here . ->

the only pic i had !

willy , you going ns alr ah , better take care of yourself ok . hope you will grow up and be a mature man ! dont hong anymore nar . hahaha . hope you will find a good girl soon . haha . & also , dont keep got taji okay anot ? you must change la , im sure eric , edmund and ah long dont wanna keep see you like this . only you can help yourself . Go ns alr , must rmb to take care leh ! dont go there bully other ppl ah , and dont let ppl bully you also ley . ok ok ? rmb , i dont want see you got anymore taji alr ah ! take care . friends always ! (: & its best if you remain as my brother kay ? dont wait anymore .

and third , to han . im sorry i cant do much for you this few days when you were so down and moody, the only thing i can do is to listen to your problems . & im sure you were feeling much better alr . im very happy for you that you no longer emo alr . no matter what when you think of the past , your ex , your brother , your neighbour and your jie , dont emo alr k ? i know there are part of you , but life is like this . you have to learn the hard way in order to mature . and im sure , you have learn alot of things in life alr . like cherishing the ppl around you. rmb wad you promise me, never drink alone when you are feeling down unless you are out or have some events . takecare ! your last few days back must be quite enjoyable . hope you remain like this . cause , you will always have your friends with you still . (:

2009-06-12T23:24:00.000-07:00

holidays are soon over , in two more days ! how sad la . many things happen within this two weeks , but still, i had lots of fun almost everyday . ^^ haha . my second warning letter came sia , and its only the first term :( im really going to buck up and not play alot anymore . =/ no more late for sch too ! (: haha .

oya , wanna post about my biggest achievement for this whole two week ! haha . i went to the red house ! ok , its NOT my first time going in la , but because , i went at midnight, around 3.30 ! the 'spritual time' lol ! gosh , i was freaking scared ! took up alot alot of courage to go in , thanks to willy , eric and edmund who kept pushing me to go in . -.- so , there were 6 of us , but only 4 went in ! we climbed through the main gate . haha . In there , i seriously dont dare look up , kept looking down on the floor . thanks god , dearest nisa was with me ! haha . held her hands so tightly inside la . haha . explored the place for around 15 min , it was super dark inside . eric and willy said they saw and felt alot of spirits inside ! but i didnt see anything . heng ley . haha . if not i think i sure faint . lol ! i only felt that my leg was kind of pain when i went in , but when i came out , my leg not pain alr . o.O haha ! eric told me cause something was pulling on to my leg ?! freak out when i heard that la . hahaha . nisa's touch light blow off immediately when we were out of the red house too . and its a new battery la , so cant be no batt de lor . ahhh , scary right ? hehs . so after that slack at macs and went home around 7 am . (:

2009-06-06T12:55:00.000-07:00

see my contact groups ! irriating yong huat , this is for you ! you suck man , totally suck . you want me advertise for you right ?! neh , this is for you ! (: hahaha ! all girls out there , better becareful of him cause ..

First , he is a fucking big HONGSTER !
Second , he love to lie !
Third , he is super thick skined , always say himself shuai , but i totally dont think so !
Fourth , he think he got bike he cool , only use that to hong za bor . girls , dont ever ride on ah huat bike cause he will take advantage of you only !
Fifth , he damn irriating one , keep annoying people , keep spam ppl phone , keep ask people call me chat only .
Sixth , he is a bragger ! always think alot of girl like him one , *pui * also always say himself good when he is so not !
seventh , he treat people damn bad one , always backstab people de !
Eighth , he everyday meet different zabor one . say no money still can everyday meet diff za bor . see , big liar and big flirt !
ninth , dont ever go his house ! cause go in , cannot come out alr . hahaha !

wad i say is true okay ! si ah huat , please dont ever get married , dont hai si all the girls okay ! kns ! ok , dont kill me ! hahaha . happy ? i advertise for you alr leh , i good right . =p hehe .
& stop calling me yao guai ! cause you are one yourself !

so , this is the stupid ass pic .
he allow me to put his ugly pic up .

happy now ? now the whole world knows you .
you owe me smth for helping you advertise ! & ,
you will also regret allowing me to write all this up ,
cause my blog got people read de okay !
HAHA

2009-06-01T23:13:00.000-07:00

everything use my money , fuck . i myself alr no money still use my money . _|_ shampoo i buy , phone bill pay myself . now contacts solution still ask me pay myself . fucking bias mum i have . super bias . everything give my sister . sister want this want that , she buy . i want this , dont buy , ask me use my own money . can tell me say no money somemore . zzz . no money still can gamble ?! wtf . no money then dont gamble la , use the money give me buy necessary thing pls ! bias bias bias . everything i on my own . my allowance also so little how i survive sia . $150 one month you tell me how i survive . food alr cost so much . still got all my other things leh , dont need pay ah ?! fucking bias la you . dont blame me why im not attached to this family, dont blame me why i always stay out . you caused this totally . ok , i know im damn childish writing this shit . how old alr still write this kind of thing -.- but , no choice , im seriously pissed now . need smth to vent my anger on .

anyway , im alr in such a pathetic state and i wasted 9 fucking bucks ystd ! ah , that money went to feed other ppl mouth laa. =/ anyway , had fun ystd sitting on trolleys , being pushed around like idiot with so many ppl staring . haha ! had fun teasing ppl around us . had fun slacking and talking rubbish . so long never see monkey alr . still the same , as retard as ever . or even , more retarded . second , as thick skinned as ever . third , getting uglier and fatter alr . lol ! dont kill me ah . =x joking only la . hehs . still as beautiful as ever . LOL ! cya soon again , pool tgt with nisa okays & maybe , call wai kiat too (: back to our usual night hangout area . she misses your cute face , which i so dont agree . =x tee-hee .

2009-06-01T21:16:00.000-07:00

my toothache's seriously killing me . pain pain pain ! nabeh ley . pissed off by my teeth sia , wanna extract all of it . yes , all all all ! who cares if i go teethless ! retard silly mickey says he will still want me . =p HOHOHO . but i dont believe him nar , cause he is SILLY . - the sillest guy living on earth . The sillest guy getting hurt evey minute and yet still patiently waiting for miracle to happen . The sillest guy who dont care about girls look . The sillest guy who dont hong zabor . The sillest guy who dont even miao zabor . The sillest guy who cries cause he wanna hear his love voice & dont wanna his love to overnight outside , but she still did . The sillest guy who can stay up the whole night waiting for his love to come safely home despite him having exam the next day -.- tell me , silly right he ? & the sillest guy who still choose to put in his 101% still , despite his love bo chup attitude to him always . =/ whyyy ?! his sillyness only make me feel such a bitch . i know everything is my fault right from the start . i dont deny that at all . cause of my immaturity , i have done things that i shouldnt have , things that are totally irresponsible of me . =/ nothing can ever express how apologetic i am to you . you have done all that you could to salvage this thing . its me , its all me . michelle , think & stop being cruel !

p/s
letting go ,
is not that hard .
isit ?

2009-05-31T09:44:00.000-07:00

i wanna change my url already la . cant stand my url . cause its super duper retarded . but , i lazy leh . have to tell ppl relink all these . troublesome only . ahh , should i should i ? anyway . went bedok had dinner today . ate alot sia ! (: hope to put on more weight leh . hahaha . reached bedok, i was fucking pissed had a huge quarrel at first , but in the end , settle things (: haha .

oh , & alot ppl has been asking me what sch i am in , and when i tell them im in RP , they wil go on and ask me , what i got for my L1R4 . & i super hate it when ppl ask me that question ! cause i will get damn paiseh and dunno what should i ans . dunno if i should just tell them i got 20++ or tell them the truth . cause if i tell them the truth , they will go on and ask me alot of question , why this why that . and i have to go on and tell them my story one year ago , which i dont think there is anything to be proud of :( have done many sinful things last year before and after i was dropped out & im trying hard not to repeat the same mistakes i made last year ok ! ahh , but i received my first warning letter alr regarding my attendance . ok , next term starts , i promise i wont be late and will go sch everyday ! ah , jiayou michelle ! :D must stop thinking of play alr & think of my future . (:

addicted to facebook , bejewelled . but cant seem to hit the high score sia ! :( wonder how people can get 100k plus . crazyness . i played like more than 100 times still cant even hit 90k :( nvm , calvin & yongjun you wait , i will win both your score sooner or later (: tortise will win the race . tee-hee . =p

p/s
let us remain like now ,
cause i can feel your happiness.

2009-05-31T03:02:00.000-07:00

a replicate of kinder surprise ! cute little thing =p

the first time i saw this , thought it was some kind of toy .
& guess whats inside ?!

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ta-da !
see , the wrapping's cute ! ^^

CHOCOLATE !

& there's a capsule and some toy inside of it ! (:

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i have THREE of it !
:D

hahaha ! ok , not as if i have not seen this kind of thing before . but just that , i thought only kinder surprise is like this . i didnt know i can find something like these else where !
& know where i got this cute thing from ? ARCADE ! :D its from those big candy catching machines . cute yo ! (: ws spent $25 bucks catching those sweets . hahaha ! actually these machines like waste money only lor . but it gets us addicted ! =p haha . so , went a couple of places today . together with jason & ester . haha . something happened later . & i felt super bad .

im really really sorry , i didnt mean or wanted to hurt you this way . i knew you put in effort to plan out this for me . and i knew you were looking forward for that moment . im really sorry to dashed all your hopes . for that moment , seeing you so disappointed , it made me sad . but i really had no choice but to reject you . cause , i believe staying as friends will be the best way for us , cause you will never be happy if you are with a person who dont love you at all. and i woulnt want to see you unhappy casue i have always treated you like my good friend . i am indeed touched by all the things you did for me , & because of me , you quarrelled with your bro . im really sorry. trust me , i believe , even as friends now , we can still be like before . hanging out tgt always . (: no matter what , you are always a good friend to me , a friend that wont be forgotten . thanks , & sorry (: hope that the things happen tonight will not affect our friendship . takecare .

2009-05-28T07:38:00.000-07:00

holidays are here yo ! (: have been having UTs this whole week . think im gonna flunk most of it badly ? haha ! anyway , school have been pretty much fun . besides the fact that , i was late almost everyday -.- okay , i seriously promise promise promise myself that once the holidays are over , i wont be late ever again for sch !

im gonna sleep early .
im gonna get myself out of the bed no matter what !
no more sleeping in the toilet when im bathing . cause each time i tell myself that im gonna sleep for another 10 min only , i end up sleeping for 2 hours or more ! -.-
i will only give myself 40 min to prepare .
regardless of anything i will catch the 7am bus 39 !

MICHELLE , you can do it ! :D im seriously so going to tell myself to sleep by 11 everyday . friends , if you happen to talk to me during that time , must force me to go sleep ! cant be late anymore alr :( hehs .

anyway , wanna share this cute stuff with you all . (:

thanks for this present ! (L)

2009-05-23T05:54:00.000-07:00

so i guess , your hatred for me has intensify . whatever . hate me much as you want . you never know what im thinking inside me . all that you think of is just the bad side of things . have you ever seen the effort i put in ? maybe its not alot , at the very least , im trying . it doesnt take weeks to change . it takes months . since you cant have that patience to see how things will turn out in the end , cant wait and see me change , cant have your support in the process . guess this may only be the best way out . as long as you know you will be happier , i respect you . dont wanna hurt you anymore . cause i believe i have hurt you countless of times . Just because , to you , everything i do never turns out right . in your eyes , i had never once love you. if all its true , then i sincerly apologised to you . lastly , you can stop hurling vulgarities alr . you never know what it feels like . cause at the very least , i never once say ' fuck of la you ' to you . (:
takecare .

2009-05-18T08:53:00.000-07:00

webcam with daryl in sch . haha !

crap ! he's such a bastard , forever scolding me bitch .
HOR DARYL ?

& know him so long alr , he love saying himself fat.
forever saying his face round ! LOL .
where got la daryl ?!

okay , dont kill me pls . there are more to come .
i haven post your ku ku face webcam up yet .
HAHAHA !

scold me bitch somemore la .
=p

2009-05-15T08:39:00.000-07:00

this getting so sickening .

dont wanna stay home any longer .
dont wanna see you taking sides .
dont wanna hear any more words coming out from your mouth .
dont wanna be stuck between like before .
i cant seem to manage my time properly .
too many things happening fast . faster than i thought .

& to add on , plans were ruined once again.
today & the following .
to think i was looking forward to it .
seriously fuck kay .

p/s
this feeling,
so familar once before ,
feels so distant now .

2009-05-13T05:31:00.000-07:00

tennis ystd . guess what happened ? we had to do like some training or smth . then there was one , we had to do some back run thingy . and know what happened ?! i dunno wad happen to me seriously . think gei kiang or what la . then run so fast backwards , then lost control la . then fall down backwards sia ! :( seriously pain . no joke ! both my wrist to elbow there like numb . cant move at all , no energy laa . both ley ! haissss . sat down and rest like quite some time . then cant play anymore . so just sit down there and see people play . sad sia :( and my wrist started to get swollen :( and slowly slowly , i cant really move my wrist cause its very pain ! anyway , waited for luk chung to end tennis then go off tgt (: she got to the main team ! CONGRATS TO HER ! :D haha . so , tennis ended at around 10 plus i think . went out of sch . on the way out , met this group of year 3 soccer players . walked and took bus with them tgt to wl inter . haha . they super funny la . haha . some were from sports science course . so , i asked them about my wrist ! they said , its not fracture leh ? cause still can move around , but pain only . they say its just muscle tear or smth . ISIT ? but my wrist got like swollen leh :( hope its really not fracture ba ! caused im dont dare go to the doctor ! they will pull here pull there . im super scared of pain seriously . went home , my dad helped me put medicine up and bandage to prevent much movement . hope its gets better ! ^^

see my right wrist ! its swollen right !
much more worst than my left wrist .

ahhhhh .

argh , blame it on my gei kiang- ness :(

2009-05-09T01:42:00.000-07:00

i cant take it anymore . your selfishness has caused lots of uneccessary trouble .
even , if i tried to hold on , things would still never change .
afteral , our character is totally different . im sorry .
its better for us this way , goodbye .

2009-05-08T03:56:00.000-07:00

Played webcam with luk chung in the school library ! (:
hahaha . here are the pics ! enjoyyyy ~

2009-05-08T00:01:00.000-07:00

thursday -

somethings happened in the morning, when im on my way to school . actually , it already happened the previous night & it continued in the morning . im seriously tired by everything . physically & mentally . im sure you too . cause deep in our heart , we hanged on even though we knew we were totally different right from the start . However, the more we hanged on , the more quarrels we had . it gets worst every single day . quarrels , eventually turned to fight . when will it ever stop ? never , i guess . im tired , dont wanna think about it anymore again . broke down once i reached class . i hate the way you shouted at me , hated the way you indirectly insulted me , hated the way you say things sacarastically , hated the way you love me . cried once i reached class cause i cant hold on any longer , cant take the way you shouted and lectured me . im serioulsy upset by you . think i like cried very long . thanks to my classmates who comforted me and cheer me up yo (: im very much fine now already . nvm . lets drop this subject . haha . shant think about it ever again and never will i bring it up again . move on . (:

so , went to rebond my hair today yo ! went jean yip . cause theres some promotion thingy . did soft rebonding . cost me $140 ley . expensive or what ? but didnt rebond my fringe cause i scared will look flat . haha . alot ppl say not much difference ley ! cause last time alr kinda straight . only the back alitle ..... saded . but nvm , i like can alr (: teehee . xD

oya ! & theres supposed to be cheerleading on wed , but i did not go ! :( cries ! nvm , i think i will get kick out alr . so, may be joining tennis with jasmine and luk chung . & theres audition coming soon !

PICTURES !

p/s
now is for real .

2009-05-03T07:47:00.000-07:00

saturday -

walauuu :( . supposed to go zouk with nisa . in the end , didnt go down . met up with weisheng and yong huat & pei-ed them for the entire day ! but nvm , its okay . (: its absolutely worth it cause this may be my last time meeting weisheng alr ! he 's going to be locked up in prison for months & months ! seriously , going to miss him laaaaa . hais ! i hope hope you wont fo silly things anymore . i pray that you will always think of the consequences after what you did . like what i told you , no matter what , i will always be there for you if you need accompany , someone to talk to or share problems with (: you will always be one good friend i will never ever ever forget ! (:

nway , woke up , prepared , and met up with weisheng and yong huat at my house downstair . felt so bad , cause they waited very very long for me to prepare finish ! haha . yong huat biked down elias mall , while me & weisheng took cab down siaaa . haha . ate , & went supermarket bought some stuffs for spagetti ! (: afterwards , cabbed down again to sembawang . slack at weisheng's place there . cooked spagetti ! hahaha . gambled , play cards until midnight . afterwards , their friends came over played mahjong . haha . im not really good at playing , so didnt join them :( yong huat also did not play with them ! haha . boring ley , watch them play only . but its alright la , i had fun too ! yong huat showed me some cards magic tricks . cool sia ! shall trick some of you people next time . teehee . =p played until 5 in the morning . went down city hall met nisa for mac breakfast . hotcakes yo ! (: soon after , trained home . damn shag . slept all the way on the mrt siol ._.

the spagetti ! (:
its super inedible . weisheng fault !

p/s
it will never stop if neither of us give in .

2009-05-01T11:29:00.000-07:00

supposed to head down future today . in the end was cancelled cause something happened . so postponed to tmr . how sad ? :( sooo , met up with thommas even though im having a fever ! good ya ? hahaha ! headed down ehub (: slacked and went home cause was totally not feeling well at all . super sick . fever , headache , body ache, stomach pain , sore throat and all . dunno why i suddenly got fever sia ! :( maybe i caught that swine flu ? HAHA ! kidding =p lol . resting alr . hope my fever goes down by tmr ! in that way , i can have fun tmr ! hehs . =p

i want you baybeh ! (:
dont think you know i actually do miss you .

2009-05-01T09:59:00.000-07:00

Thursday -

after sch , around 8 , went down ps meet up with classmates. - jasmine , luk chung , jianhong , jiawen , simon , eugene and wei xiang for dinner . dine at cafe cartel . afterwards , head down parklane for pool . videos were taken . its up at my facebook . go there see if any is interested . haha !
After that , met up with ws , jason , jason's gf and derrick . haha . drove around (: went iluma's arcade first . played with those catching soft toys the machine. haha ! jason caught alot of stuffs for his girlfriend ! envy envy . hahaha . ws wasted like 5 bucks i think , trying to catch one bear for me . in the end , never catch until ! but its ok luh . (: haha . headed to henderson wave afterwards . didnt know there was such things until ystd ! The henderson wave is pretty i tell you . (: its pretty romantic up there , many couples was up there enjoying themselves , smooching away . lmao ! recommend you guys to go up there if you have not been there . its located at henderson road btw (: near telok blangah park . haha . the scenery is much nicer at night with all the lightings . haha . headed down , changi airport later on . slacked at macs . was so tired by then . everyone of us was practically sleeping down there . lol ! cant get high anymore :( poor jason , despite being so tired , he have to send us back home then he can get home . haha . reached home around 6 . super shag . haha . & im having a fever nowww ! like suddenly sia ._.

PICTURES !
managed to capture a few shots of my classmates (:

jiawen , simon

simon , weixiang

eugene, lukchung .( she cover her face sia ! ) hehs .

jasmine, jian hong

HENDERSON WAVE !

didnt i told you it was beautiful ? (:
hope i could go up there with you ! but i doubt it will come . =/

p/s
its been long since i even had a proper talk with you .
i wanna think bout it no more .

2009-04-26T20:09:00.000-07:00

i got my pay ! like finallyyyyy !
thanks for going down and help me collect my pay thommas . (:
rebonding ? red highlights ? dance ? shop ?
im so going to do all these soon ! :D
HEH . cant wait !

p/s
am seriously gonna make a choice ?
its hard to decide .

2009-04-26T19:37:00.000-07:00

sunday -

went down cine tgt with thommas , yao teng & his gf . went to watched the international , boring show ! was like sleeping and playing in the cinema . lmao . went home around 10 plus . =/ after school started , everything seem to change for me :( no more hanging out late , no more tonning , no more fun . no more nightlife . everyday must go home early for sch the next day . how sad ? miss how life was in the past , seriously . but what to do ley ? studies is important nowadays . without a proper cert , how far am i going to get ? sian ley . time faster fly pls , let my three years pass quickly ! (: anyway , school' can be quite enjoyable at times too .

aint guys just guys ?
hong & hong & still , hong .
you will never understand what i gone through .
more than what you think of . definately .
you cant blame me if i have litle trust on you people .
prove me wrong , if you are even serious ._.

2009-04-23T21:41:00.000-07:00

koped the following content from sharmaine's blog ! found it very true so decided to blog it here too ! ^^ hahaha . see it ppl ! its super hilarious !

for a relationship to work out , both people must have the same pace and the same focus . whats the focus ? HER . its all about HER . fuck everything you have in your life and just think of ways to make her happy .
say YES to everything , everything you can afford .
guys don't argue ! you'll never win a woman in an argument . guys have the need to make sense but woman are just irritated .
you can't make a woman happy , its impossible . woman always complain about something , they love to complain .
no matter what you do , she'll always be mad at you .
and the no.1 reason why your girl is always pissed off & mad at you is that YOU AIN'T HER 1ST CHOICE .
guys .. have you ever catch your girl looking at you and ain't saying anything ? in her mind .. she's thinking 'how did i end up with this ugly & stupid motherfucker ?'

LOL ! indeed !

and was looking through this video as well . (: how true ?

Everyone lies .
men's lies : i was at tony's house , i was at kenny house .
woman's lies : it is YOUR baby !
whos the biggest liar ? WOMAN'S the biggest liar .
you have got heels , you aint that tall ?!
you got a make up , your face dont look like that !
you got a wig , your hair aint that long ?!
you got a wonder bra , your tits aint that big !
everything about women is a lie , and you expect man to tell the truth ? FUCK YOU !
All of us live lies .

HAHA ! god , he 's crazy !

2009-04-18T12:15:00.000-07:00

overdued pictures ! taken one day before the sch orientation at marina 's square food court .

i seriously like omnia's cam .

2009-04-18T11:02:00.000-07:00

Three days orientation over ! :D

first day : orientation was alright . kind of boring actually . its wasnt as lively as the last orientation i went in tp . haha . first day , played some boring games . its was something like amazing race or what . lol . had cheers all that . but i tell you , the engineering school is so not enthu . everyone like dying . lol ! hard to get high . haha . anyway , made a group of friends . sadly , we are all from diff classes ! :( haha .
second day : skipped the second day of orienation . went down yishun at night to meet wei sheng for dinner and arcaded ! haha . met up with soon lee on the way back too . haha . slacked and then went home ! (: haha .
third day : third day of orientation , had to bring laptop to school ! i tell you , im so pissed with myself for not buying a laptop bag , instead , i bought a shoulder bag . & that bag is big la . ( the lengh of the bag , think is 25cm ) know what ? bus 39 is fucking crowded in the morning . everyone is like queezing and queezing . & my bag , like embarrassing only , blocking everyone way ! they like pushing and pushing my bag . _|_ seriously . felt like screaming at them right in their face. sickening . some still can give me the irritated face and the 'tsk' sound . hello ? you think i want my bag so big meh ? no choice right . _|_ . on top of that , my bag is super heavy . SUPER ! heavy until my whole shoulder like red la . -_- i swear im so going get a laptop bag by tmr man . anyway , saw all my classmates alr . seriously , i think rp is a school with alot of foreigners ? like alot of CHINA people all gather in this sch . zzz . and so , went off from the orientation at 5 . (:

viewty's front cam seriously suck .

see how pathetic their lunch is .

end of orientation ! thanks , ting ting , cindy & lilian for making the orientation more fun for me ! (: though we may not be seeing much of each other again , hope we still stay in contact (:

2009-04-18T10:53:00.000-07:00

overdued pictures .
look at his different expressions . lmao !

p/s
should i ?

2009-04-14T08:18:00.000-07:00

GREAT .
orientation's tomorrow . TOMORROW LEY ! god . after one whole year of play & enjoyment , im back to sch once again . =/ ahh , im scared ! pray hard pray hard it wont rain tomorrow . & thursday friday too ! orientation , dont go hard on me pls !

2009-04-12T22:53:00.000-07:00

im addicted to this song ! their dance super cute ! hahaha .

" i want nobody nobody but you *clap clap* you *clap* .

& check this guy out ! look at the way he dances . (:

2009-04-10T10:48:00.000-07:00

dinner with family at bedok 81 . haha . so long since i last went out with my family ! haha . ordered alot of food . afterwards , went down giant walked & shopped . haha . we kept playing at there . lol ! took quite some pics , but i shall only upload a few . (: hahaha . drove home around 10 . & channel 8 's showing ALONE now . haha ! watching with my sistersss . we shall get freaked out tgt . seriously , i think i have a damn weak heart . i get easily freaked out . sudden change of sounds or a face popping out from the screen can make me jump up . like really jump la . even so , i still love watching horror shows ! haha . dunno why ley , love the feeling of getting scared ba ? hehs !

my sister ! (:

flirt ! =p

p/s
i cant stop those moments from reappearing in my mind again & again .
i cant help it . i cant tell you as much as i want to .

2009-04-09T00:37:00.000-07:00

i bought myself a new hair dryer . near 50 bucks man ! luckily the sales person gave us discount , cause mine was the display set . haha ! so expensive ! i swear im going to take proper care of you from now on man . you will be my third , and the last ! hahaha . was at chalet two days back . i slept over the second night ! haha . first night , went night cycling . (: haha . & the bithday cake very very nice ley ! ^^ haha . sad , didnt take any pics man . anyway , enjoyed myself ! haha . orientation starting soon . how am i suppose to survive ?! :(

the hair dryer i bought ! (:

p/s
it feels like im dreaming .
if it is , please , let this dream continue on .

2009-04-07T02:48:00.000-07:00

im so so so sorry :( i tried my best to take care of you already . really . ever since you became my second , i promise myself , never to let you leave me . i tried my best not to let you suffer after so much that you have done for me . like , being there for me whenever i needed you , tolerated my screamings at you and not making a sound and most importantly , you are the saviour to my hair . i really want to thank you so so much for being with me every single day for about one year .why must you choose to leave me after i had developed much feelings for you ? :( WHY ! why cant you be stronger, and hang on ?! i know most of the times , im at fault cause i screamed , ill treated and hated you at times . but , thats because , you did not do your job properly ! However in the end , i will always apologise to you and i will still come back and find you right ? on top of that , i still give you words of comfort like , ' dont worry , i believe you will do a better job this time round . ' am i right ? and i gave you good place to sleep . i let you have enough rest everyday , i never let you overwork . then why ?! why do you hate me so much ! so much that you have to chopped off dozens strands of my hair ? SOBS ! & worst , give some sizzling sound and burning smell , AND JUST DIED LEAVING ME ALONE ! whyyyyyyyy ?! i really cant do without you ley . you are expensive . really expensive ! please , pretty please , hear my prayers and may miracle happen and let you come back to life . will you ? :( i promise never to scream or throw my temper at you again if you do a lousy job . haisssss .

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my love ,
RIP !!!!

my poor hair dryer , hope you find a better owner . and pls , take care of those pieces of my hair for me which you chopped off . take it as a souvenior from me . ^^
love you as always .

off to chalet ! will not be blogging for next few days . (:

2009-03-29T10:47:00.000-07:00

silly baby took this pic of me . lol !

cant even take a pic properly . ( look at the part of this finger ? is blocking the camera sia ! ) tell me how silly is he ? haha ! anyway , im so bored at home . have been watching dramas after dramas on youtube . haha . every drama , never fail to make me cry like hell ! i think fated to love you is kinda nice . haha ! if any of you guys haven watch , go watch it ba ! ^^

mixed feelings. =/

2009-03-29T09:12:00.000-07:00

todays , a not so good day . works crazy today . you will never imagine what happen . haha ! i think what happen today at work is cause thommas darling has gone out of his mind ! haha . & its also that stupid supervisor fault who pulled down your mood . keep deducting our pay for small reasons . & so , we got pissed by him , and he made us no mood at all . so .... haha ! shant tell you all what happen . haha . anyway , today is the last day for us obviously i guess . after what we done . lol ! they must be freaking angry at us for doing that . haha ! & now , just waiting to get our pay . guess i will get about 200 plus only . =/

so , went home and get change and stuff . around 3 , cabbed down east coast meet glenda & richson for bladding . and fuck the weather seriously . rushed and cabbed down there , so ex , like 20 plus bucks and in the end reached there less than 15 min , it rained super heavily . irriating sia . some things happen in between la . but nvm , i dunno whose fault is it that we should blame . so , we cabbed down east coast for nothing ? so much for the rush and the cab fare . -.- so , now only left darling and me . we went to play pool for awhile and after wards , went down my house slack later on . haha . what a day sia ! cant wait to get my pay anyway ! ^^

PICTURES !

my hair like messy .

haha . we webcamed alot sia .
think we went crazy .

i dunno wth im doing la .

if you are alert enough,
you will notice that darling is strong man !

i drew this pic ,
i think it resembles alot like darling. haha !

p/s
i think i should have some time for my friends .
shouldnt you not dont trust me ?
sad :(

2009-03-26T13:38:00.000-07:00

its 4.45 now ! my eye lid's dropping anytime alr . but im still here to blog cause i feel like blogging something on the new skin i created ! hehehe . anyway , dear dear thommas is sleeping like a pig now ! haha . who knows he might be dreaming of me now la ! =p hahaha . i miss this silly guy now . lol . shall disturb his sleep after i blog finish. hehs .

ahh , gotta wake up early tmr no matter what man ! planned to have breakfast with darling tmr morning provided i am able to wake up ! i must have enough energy to complete my important mission tmr . im gonna dig hidden money in darling's cupboard , gonna storm on crawling cockroaches , gonna let all the hundred years of dust fly into my nose , gonna find hidden love letters he write to other girls , and my final product , gonna turn darling's rubbish dump room into something live-able man. hahaha ! you all should take a look at his room ! UNBELIEVEABLE I TELL YOU . cant imagine a person sleeping in that pig style for even a day alr . wonder how silly darling has slept in it for 19 years ! i shall post his room pictures up tmr when i go . bet to let all your jaws dropped . STAY TUNE STAY TUNE ! :D

alright people , gonna join my silly darling in his dream . he must have waited for me for very long alr ! hahaha . good night people ! ^^

p/s
aint girls always at the losing end ?

2009-03-22T22:52:00.000-07:00

have been busy working lately . not much stuffs happen lately . just work , work & work ! i feel so stressed when talking to those ang mohs customers man . & ang mohs customers is those that will give me big bucks ! :D lol , got to brush up my english man seriously .

anyway , theres this little thing that happen to me lately . i received an very very unexpected call from this person . all of you must be thinking , receive a call only wad . so ? but is not , this person , made a big impact in my life once before . it like months and months since we last contacted . never did i expect you to start contacting me again . and those thing you told me last few days , i dunno how should i react . afterall , its been so long . all the things that you said , i dunno if its true . cause afterall , lies after lies is what built our relationship once before. one thing , you changed . good and bad ways .

anyway , i will follow where my heart brings me too (: like i said before , let those beautiful moments , laughters , retardedness , remain as memories . carry on with our lifes now and forget about those times where tears , quarrels , fights , anger were brought about . just leave those unforgetable memories behind (: and love the one who really loves you . the one who is willing to do any silly things just to see your smile . the one who cries because he/she is afraid of losing you . the one who scold you just beacause he/she cares . & the one , whom made you truly feel happy with (: let go of the past , dont look back again and carry on with what lies in the future and let those tiny memories remain in part of our heart .

some pictures taken last few days back with bee . (:

beeeee ! <3

haha ! can you spot any thing funny ?

the shirt i bought for him ! :D

p/s
stop taking those stuffs which will harm your body
& get you addicted pls .

2009-03-16T08:45:00.000-07:00

here are some pics we took recently (:
haha . find some of our expressions kinda funny . hehs .

controlling my laughter sia !

thommas took this pic of me below ,
& he says , he have good photography skills .
like LOL la ! think is one of my ugliest pics ever instead .

2009-03-15T07:52:00.000-07:00

ystd was our one month ! ^^ guess how we spend it ppl ? hahaha ! spend it in the zoo ! but , not go there to enjoy , is go there to work man . LOL ! memorable one month indeed . under the crazy weather . half of the day is super hot , sweating like mad . & another half , rain like siao -.- on top of that , the flats that i wear , hurt my leg so badly that blisters were form :( and i was being complained twice by some fucker in the zoo ! _|_ but on top of all these , work was pretty good . collegues were friendy and i managed to make a sales of 60 bucks in all ! :D haha . after work , bus down to amk and watched movie . coming soon (: haha ! the show was quite scary la ! but the ending was kind of disappointing . hahaha . thommas bought me a new pair of shoes (: cause the current shoes caused my poor feets to form blisters man . haha . & schools starting soon , in april 20 . should i be happy ?

PICTURES !

2009-03-08T12:30:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHAT PEOPLE ??

I GOT INTO REPUBLIC POLY ! LOL . ok , though its not a good sch , and my course is freaking lousy , at least , i got a place besides my bad record . hahaha ! but its so far :( workplace at woodlands , schools at woodlands too , & im staying at pasir ris . -.- crazy .

anyway , played with the webcam with thommas . shall post those pics up ! (:

2009-03-08T12:04:00.000-07:00

today , went down mandai with thommas for some job interview and the zoo ! most prob i have got the job . (: hahaa . will be working in the zoo man ! lol . friends told me this , " dont get killed there ya . " LOL ! anyway , after the interview , went down lot 1 . lunched at pasta mania and walked around . around 6 , thommas left . calvin came down cck find me and we headed to jurong point . shopped around again . jp is seriously big ! hahaha . went arcade play awhile , and trained back home . thanks calvin for accompanying me walk so many shops to find things and being my measurement man . HAHA . you should know what i mean . =p LOL !

PICTURES !

p/s

dont be too much .
even if you wanna make me seem like a fool

2009-03-08T11:07:00.000-07:00

friday -

night cycling was cancelled ! =/ cause nisa couldnt make it last minute . so , met thommas in the evening . went down chinatown walk walk . we bought a few vcds and went down my house to watch at night ! the vcds there are pretty cheap ! haha . alot of taiwan & korean dramas selling like 10-15 bucks only . haha . watched movie at my house all the way until next morning ! (: haha . ate alot of stuffs too , ahhh , sore throat is coming soon :( ooo , & i didnt know pasta mania has delivery too ! haha . thommas surprised me with pasta mania delivery on thurs evening ! HAHAHA . such a sweety <3

saturday -

didnt head out cause i promised my dad to go my grandma house . haha . so went down grandma house in the evening ! it seem like ages since i last went there. haha . & we had crab ! :D haha . & my little cousin so adorable !

PICTURES !

the spagetti he delivered !

the sauce !

the chicken wings !

whats with that expression ? =o

little cousin !

cute ay ?

2009-03-04T10:21:00.000-08:00

today was great ! (: met up with nisa and thommas . headed down rp to hand in our application. On the mrt , had a great girls talk with nisa ! hahaha . halfway , thommas board the train & met up with us (: reached rp , explore the sch awhile , whole sch is air conditioned luh . cool ay ? hahaha . the school is pretty new. sadly , i think the sch compound is kinda small . hahaha . there is only 3 canteens . no fast food restauants all that . only food courts . how sad :( haha .

Anyway , went down cck farm mart later on (: ! thommas brought us there cause he know the ppl over there . went fish spa ! ^^ HAHA . its so cool ! at first i was super scared . like seriously scared . lol . thommas and nisa could put in their legs so easily . but me ? i took like more than half an hour to setlle down ! cause at the start , each time i put my leg down , less than 5 minutes , i cant stand the ticklishness and i will remove my leg from the water of fishes . hahahaha ! & think im the only one screaming and giggling around . i felt like a retard la . lol ! its frigging ticklish i tell you . after awhile , got use to it and it was better and kind of shiok . (: heh heh . then went over to the place with more fishes !! haha . stayed i there for about 1 hour plus , and meanwhile , i think the mosquitoes there had a great time feeding on our blood too . i had damn alot of mosquito bites la ! urgh . had alot of fun there ! ^^

afterwards , headed down lot 1 to have our dinner . haha . slack around there and took mrt back around 10 . haha . in the mrt , played games with nisa and thommas . lol ! and the loser will get slap by the other party ! LOL . so funny man , was laughing so madly in the mrt . haha ! i kena slapped by nisa twice la ! hahaha . i kept losing all the way . in the end , thommas and nisa teamed up played against me , and i won ! HAHA . get to slap the both of them :D hees ! i swear i slap nisa like super hard . revenge ! =p lol . it was so so so fun , people around us was like laughing and laughing too . hahaha ! enjoyed myself today :D will be going night cycling on friday ! and movie movies at my house at midnight ! excitedddddd !

theres quite alot of pics today !

( was the smaller one with lesser fishes )

( now the larger pond , this pond was super ticklish ! )

(his face expression so funny ! )

i forced my silly boy to smile .
take 1 . failed !

take 2 . failed !
( can you see him trying to put a smile ? )

take 3 . sucessful !! (:
silly boyy .

btw , i love thommas 5 mp camera phone !! image quality is so much clearer & better than mine la ! i dont even need to edit most of the pics using his phone to take ! (: unlike my phone , 3.2 mp , image quality sucks ! =/ can you guys spot which pic is taken by my phone , which is his ? hahaha .

p/s
this feeling ,
it came back once again .
damn .

2009-03-03T06:56:00.000-08:00

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2009-02-28T09:03:00.000-08:00

made darling sad today again :( supposed to meet him early today , like 1 oclock . but i keep sleeping ! he called me and i showed a little attitude to him . cause i was so tired , and just feel a little hot tempered . sorrryyy . :( i know i know , i keep saying sorry each time i do something wrong . and yet again , i repeat the same mistake ! ahh . so maybe my sorry wont meant much to you already . hais . =/ so , turned out that we met and 5 plus instead . so little time tgt . you are alr working , and today you didnt go work because of me and yet, i only think of sleeping and meet you so late. hais , i know , my fault once again . went down jurong point watch movie , kung fu chef , hmm , quite ok la the show , rate it 7/10 ? hahaha . bought jumbo hotdog before the movie . and guess what happen ! i opened the container to put the sauce and the bread and hotdog , dropped on the floor sia ! the hotdog rolled away ! saded ! darling said he wanted to by another one for me . i was like , aiya , nvm la ! drop on the floor still can eat la . hahaa . the most stomach pain only , wont die ! lol . stand there arguing with him for 10 min like that . lol . in the end , i said , aiya , we try ask the person see can change one new one for us not ! hahaha . and the person so nice !! agree to change the dirty hotdog and bread for us sia . heh heh . =p pity the other people who took my dropped piece . hahaha ! after the show , went explore the new jurong point (: hahaha . i dunno why , im so so crazy over shoes nowadys . haha . esp those with heels. haha . but sadly , i cant buy much of them , cause im alr tall ! sad , how i wish i can grow shorter man . i envy short people seriously , cause they get to wear high high heels :( anyway i can grow shorter people ? haha . caught the last train home (: haha .

bull dog ! HAHA ! :D

p/s
it takes two hand to clap .
will it still work if i fail ?
D:

2009-02-27T07:19:00.000-08:00

life is pretty the same lately . & im upset cause my DAE application was unsucessful ! :( which means i cant get into tp sia . and im not sure if i can continue my studies anymore . sad ! & heard that republic poly DAE application have not closed yet , so i tried my luck and apply to enter RP . heard from friends that this is a losy poly man :( and its so frigging far from my house ! another end sia . -.- what to do ? afterall , having a diploma is better than having only a olevel cert . sian , hope can get in sia ! but on the brighter note , nisa is applyin to republic poly too ! :D and heard that the facilities there are great , and the poly is beautiful (?) lol ! pray pray pray to let me in !

and recently , sort of quarelled with somone on msn . its been so long since i last quarelled with some one lo . and to think , that person i quarelled with is you . didnt except us to turn out like this . guess , everything started cause of me . afterall , im the one at fault few months back . =/

thommas is off to work ! :( today is his first day ! gave him a surprise this morning . made sandwiched for him . hahaha ! hope he is happy ? heh heh . xD he will be working almost everyday . which means , we will be spending lesser time we each other alr :( saddd ! dont worry , i will find you after your work even if its late in the night ! (: hahaha . everyone having a job . whens my turn ?! sharmaine , intro me a job today . hope to hear from you soon girl (:

&&& ! today on the mrt , i told darling this , " hey , i realised today when you were sleeping , you look like a bull dog ! " LOL ! seriously man ! i think he really look like bull dog when he sleeping la ! haahaha . a cute one though . xD lol ! i should take a picture of him sleeping for evidence la . heh heh . and i asked him , " look at me , tell me what animal i look like the most . " guess wat he say ? he said this , " hmm , think you look like monkey !! hou zi ! " hahaha ! i was like ya ya ya ! you are not the first person say i look like hou zi la ! hahahaha . got other ppl tell me say i look like monkey lehhhhhh . piang ! really meh ?! ( see the picture above , i myself think abit look like monkey leh ! lolol ) but nvm , cause i think monkeys are kinda cute creature ! much better than bull dog . =p TSK !

p/s
will you help me pull through when i fall ?
or will you let go and see me fall ?

2009-02-17T08:42:00.000-08:00

THIS POST GOING BE LONGGG AND PICTURELESS . RANTING ABOUT SOME OF MY PROBLEMS :( if you want to read , read at your own risk ! xD hehs !

wonder whats happening to me these day . feeling so fucked up almost everyday . i fucking need money , i fucking need job sia . anyone know any job kindly intro me pls ! any job will do ! (: firstly , seeing ppl buying nice clothes , nice shoes , i cant buy no matter how much i desperately want it . i can only smell those clothes in the shop and see other ppl taking away those clothes i want ! :( super sad the feeling know ? and some times i just want buy some snacks , choclates , i have to stay in the shop so long and think if i should buy , and in the end , i just walk off without buying . cause im tight with cash and i dont want ppl or bf to spend away unecessary money on me ! pathetic eh ? ya , and sometimes , i tend to compare prices like which is cheaper all that . gosh , feel so aunty la . but what to do ? you all will never understand unless you are in my shoes . seriously .

secondly , sometimes i just feel so fucking hungry . seeing ppl and friends eat nice nice food , nice nice drinks , nice dessert as much as i really wanna buy , i cant ! cause i aint have any fucking money :( shit . and when ppl ask me , you wanna eat ? i just reply , no . and when they ask me why ? know what i said ? " cause i wanna slim down . " zzz . argh . im skinny alr la , i dont have to slim down la ! in my heart , brain , body , soul , i seriosuly wanna eat ! seeing ppl eat and i cant eat sucks . esp when im hungry ! =/ damn . and when i hate it when i see the ppl i love , like boyfriend , have to provide me with food especially when they themselves are so broke ! its like extra mouth to feed on when they are financially tight ! :( saded know ? its like i feel im being a burden to him . without me , he most prob can eat good food , and dont need to save money for me to keep me alive ? hais . i feel so sad in my heart . its like , he needs money for himself too ya ? hais . fuck all the jobs . why isit i have been finding jobs but just cant get any ? and all my friends can ? whats the matter la . maybe some where , i have gone wrong .

hais . thirdly , know today on bus going home , i feel so sad . you had to give me your last 10 bucks to top up my ez link card and you needed money to top up your card too . but you chose to give it to me . i feel so bad and sad la . hais . and on the bus , you have to tap your card cause the stupid bus driver just cant give in though we gave coins . damn . and in the end , you have to use up your last few bucks in your bank to top up your card . =/ hais. i really feel so bad , its like because you have to provide for my daily expenses and you have used up all your money alr .

i really feel so pathetic . i cant even support myself and have to rely on you . really , i feel money is everything in this world la . ok , maybe not everything . but MOST . without money , you may be happy , but with money , you definately confirm , chop , will be much happier ! aint it ? hais . think most of my friends have been quite disappointed in me ba ? and sometimes , i admit im disppointed in myself too . cause i always link things with money . like what yong jun said to me . " talking to you irritate me . talk to you until pek chek. " ya , cause i think i said smth like , " i give you the thing to help you remove your black heads , and kaching kaching $$$$$$$$$$$$$ " see , and he got irritated . its not just once also -.- i understand how they feel . but , hais . i really dont like myself being like this too . but what to do ? im really in need for money , thus my head is all about money these days :( i dont want become a burden to ppl around me , like bf who cant even have enough to support himself and has to support me . heartbreaking know ? :(

i really need money sia . and its getting in my nerves . i need money is not to have fun and play la ! its for food ? outside foood cause like 4 bucks . money for my phone bills . like , 30 bucks . money for my contacts , like 130 bucks . and money for transportation ? and adult fare is fucking ex i tell you all . curse the person who made the fare so ex la . 10 bucks top up , 2 days GONE . one week how much ? 50 bucks transport . =/ total for one week i need like 70 bucks ? and look , is one week k ! without counting my phone money and lens . how am i going survive ? i dont receive money from my parents . zzz . and pls , i really dont want you to support me la . each time you do , and i see your wallet at the end of the day , no more money left ! oh my . i really feel so pathetic and such a leech . like sucking away your money . and esp its coming from the one i love , makes me feel even more sader .

pls , got job pls tell me ! im looking around alr , look at newspaper all that but cant seem to find . they either want full time or those who can work permanent . gosh . not say i did not put in an effort to find la ! feeling so fustrated these days . and because of this , i threw attitude at bf today at marina . feeling so down . throw attitude , cold war , threw some tears away and settled by apologising to him . sorryyyy :( next time any problem i face , i will tell you k ? i just dont want you worry for me , understand ? i hate it when my problems become people problems :( i hate to see ppl feeling sad cause of me know ? hais . ok , im done ranting . and i realise everything i said is about money . seriously , i dont wanna become a money face lor . $.$ shit .

to thommas :
i really wanna thank you all these while for supporting me , feeding me , taking care of my daily expenses , tolerating my attitudeness , and everything . & without once , shouting or complaining at all . thanks ! i feel so glad to have found you sweety . you are my everything know ? , though i know i may seldom tell you those mushy mushy lovely dovey things and though i know you feel that im not sticky enough to you all that . haha . but i know you know i love you alot still right ? haha ! a big thanks , and i love you ! :D muacksxsxsxs! *

2009-02-16T09:40:00.000-08:00

today , supposed to meet glenda and thommas at 2 ! i was super late . =/ as usual . really very angry with myself sia . why cant i just be early for once ?! michelle ! damn . made glenda angry with me , made glenda yelled at thommas , made thommas waited downstair for me for very long :( its all all my fault . and when i reached , i dunno why i showed attitude to thommas . its like my fault , and i knew it ! but i just cant control myself . cause im angry with myself , thus i showed attitude to the ppl around me , venting my anger to the ppl around me . shit man . i hate myself to be like this and im trying to change ! but its hard . sorry thommas . really sorry . and sorry glenda for ruining our plan . and really really , i promise you all , i wont be late again ! no , i mean if i may be late , but i wont be late for so long anymore . promise ! (:

so , change plans . went ws with thommas , slack at library and waited for nisa to come , trained down to fareast walk around . then over to my house for some movie . haha . coming over again on friday to ton ! :D yay ! ok , gonna meet glenda at 4 tmr ! PLEASE PLEASE MICHELLE ! DONT BE LATE !!! :( ok , you will be a pig if you are late ! *pray hard , wake up early ! *

p/s
michelle , stop being late .
or i make sure , no one will go out with you ever again !

2009-02-15T01:22:00.000-08:00

valentine , valentine , valentineeeeee ~ ! :D unforgetable , memoriable ? haha . morning , around 11 , got ppl come send flower to me . lol ! many many thanks to yong jun for giving me those roses (: happy la , never act one happy okay . so dont keep saying i fake ! =/ haha . thommas , came my house around 1 , to wait for me early morning , he went down cathay buy movie tickets alr . touched man ! (: waiting for me prepare finish , he talked with my dad . wonder what they talk about la . tsk ! 2 plus , we went down cathay watch the movie . watch pink panther 2 . super funny sia ! i recommend those who haven watch the show to go watch , you will never regret watching ! can laugh until stomach pain la . hehs ! afterwards , went down ps walk walk , while waiting for glenda and richson to meet us . (: went to arcade play with thommas ! haha . around 7 , we went down clark quay meet glenda , richson ! haha . the guys , took us on a boat ride at the singapore river . lol ! first time taking that boat . lol . 13 bucks sia , for like 15 minutes ride? lol ! ex sia . haha . wanted to eat at makansutra . but so many people there sia ! super crowded and hot ! so we went food court eat instead :D haha . after eating , went esplanade there slack . lol . 11 plus , went back home to catch the last train . were supposed to come over my house to have movie maraton . but last minute nisa cant , so cancelled =/ saded . haha . anyway had lots of fun today ! thanks thommas , who never fail to make my day ! :D i glad to know you sweety . (:

PICTURESS !

the flower yong jun gave me !
(: (:

the jelly i make for thommas !

the cup cakes i made !

the bear thommas gave me!

nachos at ben & jerry .

eating the jelly i gave him ! (:

at clark quay mrt

the boat ride ticket

in the boat . dark leh . =/

thats all about my valentine day ! :D

p/s
14/2/09 , 7.45 pm
i will never forget .
its a date of a new beginning (:

2009-02-13T19:18:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINEEE DAY TO ALL OUT THERE . MAY ALL COUPLES ENJOY YOUR VALENTINE ! :D & TO THOSE WHO ARE SINGLE OUT THERE , DONT BE SAD , ONE DAY , YOU ALL WILL FIND YOUR RIGHT ONE ! :D

HAPPYYYYYY VALENTINEEEE DAYYYYY !

Because you love me - Celin Dion

or all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

xoxo

*details of today wil be updated at a later date .
stay tuned ! (:

2009-02-12T08:43:00.000-08:00

today , met up with nisa ! (: slack at down town east mac . didnt had any make up on today . haha ! my face for once felt real . haha ! decided to have a hair cut together with nisa . 18 bucks ! my hairrrrrrrrrrr =/ miss my old hair lots la ! saded :( isnt really nice man . damn ! how i wish i could paste back my hair :( look so weird nowwwwwwww . but i know train will still love me :D hahaha ! today night , something happened made me very sad and disappointed . but nvm , cause i really wanted to surprise you and didnt want to let you know where i was going . hais . super sad . but i was so sorry , i should have ans your call and reply your msges . seeing you cry , makes me even sader you know . i dunno why , the minute you cry , how i wish i was right there beside you . how i wish i could just give you a big hug and tell you everything is fine , cause i will always be there for you no matter what . (: *hugsss*

& yong jun ! wonder what you are up to . keep asking me funny questions today -.- lol .

picturesss with nisa !

( can you see my dark rings ? =/ )

p/s
valentine valentine ! (:
super anxious .

2009-02-09T08:04:00.000-08:00

monday , wen to meet thommas and his friends and bukit timah play pool . (: haha . its been awhile since i went down bukit timah . beauty world , i.r.c , railway bus stop . brings me back to a place where i once felt like home . hahaha . memories ! (: anyway , after pool , went down amk find glenda and richson . after they left , slack with thommas at amk library , cam whore alot with him ! ^^ hehe . never fail to make me smile every single day . * hugs * sorry , i was upset with you that day though i knew it was my fault . sorryyyyy . =/

today , went thommas , glenda and yewhao at vivo (: went shopping ! but didnt buy anything. just window shopping . haha . went home around 9 at slack downstair with thommas awhile (: hahaha . i feel so happy hanging out with you all today ! ^^ cant wait for k boxing , valentine , and more outing with you all ! (:

because you made me smile , laugh , and be myself
you captured my heart sweety , (:

pictures , i camwhore with thommas at library ! (:

forever ? (:
xoxo

2009-02-07T01:55:00.000-08:00

went out with thommas , glenda today ! (: went studio wu ask about some dance stuffs . going register for dance with glenda . cant wait ! ^^ haha . went down amk meet richson . went there pool . i won thommas and glenda ! HOHO :D afterwards , went eat and we went separate ways . went with thommas down to cck . haha ! rode me on his bicycle ! (: haha . though is not as thrilling as riding on bike , having ride with you across streets on bicycle is satisfying , and the feelings great & indeed im happy having spend time with you ! :D * hugs * slack afterwards .

PICTURES !

glenda sweety ! (:

thommas sweety ! (:

p/s
knowing that , to you mum , im a shame in the family ,
it fucking sucks . i hate you M .

2009-02-04T08:42:00.000-08:00

today went out with glenda , thommas and yew hao ! haha . met them at city hall , pei glenda down penisular buy her jeans , then we went down bugis shop (: haha . bought quite a few clothes and bag today . thanks thommasssss !! ^^ very very happy la ! (: hahahaha . after that , glenda bought drinks and we went down singapore river there slack (: played truth or dare . so funny man ! kept disturbing glenda and yew hao . hahaha ! had lots of fun today . thanks thommas . its been so long since i have this kind of feeling again . (: thanks for brightening up my day sweety ! ^^ *hugs !*

im seriously not taller than him ! haha !

p/s
je t'aime !

2009-02-04T08:27:00.000-08:00

monday !

went down tampines meet thommas ! (: haha . went to watch movie , all well ends well . super funny la the show ! recommend all of you to watch . ^^ haha . after movie, went slack at mac . at night , went meet weisheng and friends . haha . they came to fetch me . went rounding . (: super fun man ! 3 cars , we raced . drived damn fast la ! shiok man ^^ hehs ! went alot place . went up kent ridge park , woodland to eat and went ktv (: hoho . had lots of fun that night ! esp racing that time (: lol !

pictures i camwhored with thommas ! (:

p/s
i know i will be right this time . (:

2009-01-29T07:22:00.000-08:00

WEDNESDAY ! (:

early morning , thommas woke me up ! my beauty sleep ! :( wanted to lay more in bed actually . but he called me say he pei me go down tampines repair my fucking lousy piece of shit phone . stupid phone ! i haven complain . the button all spoil sia ! cant press any button man :( then i accidentally off my phone , and my phone cant be on again !! RAWR . irritated la ! now have to use this lousy lousy phone as spare phone :( embarrassing . -.- ok , so met thommas at tampines mrt , went repair my phone . haha . then went find glenda at the restaurant she working at ! (: afterwards , went down simei mrt meet nisa , thommas then went meet his friends . haha . went down bugis shop (: haha . then went down nisa house afterwards , met her friends , went drinking at pasir ris beach . (: home sweet home ! haha .

p/s
im hope im right .

2009-01-26T21:16:00.000-08:00

first day of CYN ! went down grandma house again . received lot of red packets ! but also not i keep =/ mother take away -.- sad sia ! gambled gambled with parents and relative . lose money . =/ stayed until 8 plus , then went down nicholas house played mahjong . haha .

second day of cyn ! went down father side of relative . super alot ppl . & super bored . everyone busy with their own stuffs , nothing much to do down there also . bored , went down woodlands meet thommas . before going , quarrelled with mum at there . i dont understand , whats wrong with lending me money ? and its only 20 bucks. -.- and i dont understand why i cant keep any red packets ? all my friends can , why cant i ? im not asking to keep all red packets right ? just some only also cant . -.- seriously , i cant stand the way you treat me , your biasness and everything . all the critism and looking down . i cant stand it ok . the way you treat me , its getting worst each day . Look , i fucking have feelings . _|_ whatever la . thanks daddy for taking out your red packet money and lend me . (: i love you dad ! (:

p/s
im f upset .

2009-01-26T20:45:00.000-08:00

finally bought all my CNY clothes . thanks valerie & sharmaine for accompanying me that day , esp val ! (: make you walked with me for so many hours finding my stuff , making you so tired. =/ sorry ! haha . chinese new year eve ! went down grandma house for reunion dinner .

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ALL ! (:

2009-01-19T00:05:00.000-08:00

ystd , some stuffs happen . made me so fucking pissed . i thought you were abit different from the rest . i thought you could be trusted . i was just giving myself time to see if things could change . and i knew it , you failed . to think you ruin everything . come on la , it serious disgust me to think you could do things like that . go on with your own life and dont pissed me of like this again . seriously , i dont care much la , it doesnt affect me much either beside feeling so disgusted by you and your flirty ways . i hate guys like this and sad to say you belong to this caterorgy . LOL . & im glad to know im right about you from the start . i knew behind my back you would do things like that . i was right . luckily i had myself prepared that explains why im not upset at all . wadever , if you think i will blog scolding you vulgarities all that , you are wrong . why should i scold you ? its your life anyway . you are free to do what you like . you said last night was very painful . then let me tell you , last night , is the most disgusting day of my life know ? wadever la . plain disgusting i could say .

and you sent me this message ystd : i spent a whole night thinking . i dont wanna deny anything cause im at fault . i will change . but you might not believe me anymore . you have no idea how painful last night was . spent alot of time thinking how to reply you . all i could think of is sorry . i love you . i swear ..

look , let me tell you then , you dont have to spend the whole night thinking . a few seconds will do . of course you are at fault . you will change ? come on , you think im a fool ? you did the same thing to you your last 2 ex . so you think you will change for me ? i dont think you need to make a huge sacrifice for me . cause i dont want it . no idea how painful last night was ? then you have no idea how disgusted my night was. all you could think of its sorry ? dont need pls . im not even related to you , not even your gf . say sorry for what shit ? i love you , i swear ? love me ? FUCK YOU . love every other girl too . lolol .

pissed man , anyway , met up with friends later . went ws mac to eat . haha . thanks weilun for giving me so much advice and telling me logic in life ! haha . you are very mature lor ! haha . then slack awhile then went pasir ris park watched the sunrise . but wait so long the sun haven come out , so tired then went home ! hahaha . OYAAAA , & i saw a shooting star ! and pasir ris beach . oh my ! im was like so happy . haha . made a wish . (: hope it will come true ? hoho .

weilun !
act cute oh ? cover cover . -.-

haha . but too bad , im fast ! (:

one more thing , the moon that day looks very funny . seem so low and the shape is super funny . i kept laughing and laughing la !

see , its like inverted semi circle .
cute uh ?

p/s
through ? confused .

2009-01-18T00:35:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHA . KNS !

NEH !

2009-01-17T07:25:00.000-08:00

whats the matter with me man . feeling so moodless these days . just got dismiss from my job . _|_ im like mentally tired . i want some time for myself la . so many things going on . i just feel so stress up . i just dunno wad to do about it sia . pls pls , pray hard for me to return back to poly so i can start my life proper again :( i dont wish to think about anything right now man . yes , im avoiding all of it , but it makes me feel better rather than accepting reality . all i need is a couple of weeks to sort things out . give me some time , dont pressure me alright ? hais =/

p/s
hongsters ,
NEH _|_
(not refering to anyone pls , in general only (: )

2009-01-13T10:53:00.000-08:00

second day of work ! (: woke up late man ! rushed down suntec . met nicholas at mrt station , send me to suntec , then he went sch (: haha . work was boring as usual , no customer at all man ! :( halfway , my boss drive me over to fareast outlet to help out there . haha . there more people lor , not so boring alr ! haha . & i today finally submitted my dae application ! really hope can go back sch man .^^ haha .

at the shop . LOL !
bored & there happen to have a mirror right infront of me sia !
heh .

p/s

good luck tmr .
everything will go well (:

2009-01-12T12:02:00.000-08:00

okay , many people haven been asking me saying they want to see me without makeup ! HAHA . so i shall post those totally makeup-less pics up ! (: dont get frighten ah ! i used my webcam to take those pics. haha . & i did not edit any of the pics ! its the lighting . haha ! dont laugh pls ! & my hair is super messy in those pics ! :(
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heh . had fun laughing ? (:

2009-01-12T11:37:00.000-08:00

first day of work today ! haha . posted to the outlet at suntec . (: haha . work sales at some shop call san street . haha . lucky my boss very nice ! & all the people working around also very nice lor (: haha . thought i was late at first . rushed down there , in the end , shop also haven opened. haha . boss later than me sia ! haha . taught me where are all the stocks , how to use the cash register all that . stress man . so many things to remember luh =/ haha . anyway , work was pretty slack . not much customers , cause maybe its a monday ? o.O haha . chit chatted with collegues and just slack around. haha . quite boring cause no customers ! :( haha . around 4 , edmund came to find me again ! (: haha . & surprise me again la he ! bought me this pig key chain uh ! haha . remind me not to oversleep ! hoho . what a nice & funny guy is he ! (: haha . after work , nicholas came ! (: send me back home . & i applied back to poly man ! choose business course , hope can get in ! ^^ *pray hard ! *

Edmundddddd !

the shop im working at (:

p/s
im pretty worried bout you .
pray hard everything goes well for you k ?

2009-01-09T21:01:00.000-08:00

went out with nicholas and his friends for dinner at aston ! (: the food there very nice man . ^^ haha . after dinner , his friends left . So we went down ehub to watch movie ! watched ong bak 2 . haha . After movie , went down mac for supper . haha . had cheese cake ! lol . their cheese cake there nicer than yours leh nicholas ! =p hehe . joking la , but your cheese cake was really nice also la ! ate all by myself leh ! HAHA . ( dont get so happy when i say yours nice k .) So , walked all the way home from ehub to my house cause there was no more last bus ! :( super long man the walk . but im like used to it alr , dunno have been walking home for how many days alr la . haha . thanks to all my friends who insisted on walking me back home instead of letting me take the transport ! =/

nicholas ! a not so ugly picture of you ! =p HAHA .
( now you believe i will put it up ? )
heh !

p/s

im not that great afterall .

2009-01-08T06:33:00.000-08:00

went down city hall meet calvin . went to marina square to look for some jobs ! haha . cause i overslept the last two days and did not go down to the current job , boss angry sia . =/ haha . so decided have to find a new job ! lol . find for a few hours . then afterwards , went to meet edmund . haha . sorry edmund ! made you wait so long at marina square ! =/ feel so bad . so , went to play pool at marina . haha . i win calvin sia . haha . happy la , at least got some one noober than me . =p hoho . took mrt back to pasir ris around 11 . In the mrt station , edmund gave me a small bear man . haha . surprise me again la ! haha . feel so bad , cause i didnt know he haven ate his dinner at all while waiting =/ sorryy ! ( next time haven eat dinner must say k ! ) haha . then , took mrt back to pasir ris with calvin . met up with nicholas to have prata at central . left around 1 plus . missed the last bus man . so have to walked all the way back from central to my house ! =/ you know how far isit ?! my leg almost break la ! have to thank calvin for walking me back home . if not so late walk home alone , can die . -.- ahh , pei him slack at my house down stairs cause he had to wait for the first bus . but pei him until 2 plus only , caused im super tired . sorry to pang seh you ! haha .

anyway , thats calvin ! ( dont get mistaken pls , we are friends only !! )
( i look weird ! =/ )

p/s
im jobless again . =/

2009-01-06T09:23:00.000-08:00

first day of work ! haha . supposed to reached there by 11.30 . and i 11 then left my house ! half an hour how to reach there on time . then no choice , cabbed down to fareast . 15 bucks sia . heart pain =/ anyway , work today was great ! my boss and collegues were very nice ! quite easy serving customers there . unlike those shop selling clothes , shoes all those . haha . had a few difficult customers , pissed with them la . but oh well , must tolerate ! (: haha . first day of work was indeed GREAT ! thanks to my friends who came down to support and cheer me on ! haha .

thanks dennis for coming by at the shop to see me work ah . haha . really happy when i saw you la seriously ! (: thanks nicholas for coming all the way here to pass me the cake and the bear ah ! so grateful ! & thanks edmund for surprising me at the shop la ! and to think you came quite early and already saw me working for so long , but i did not even know you were there man ! HAHA . funny sia . you really surprise me alot alot i tell you ! haha . & thanks all the rest , for calling me up and ask me hows work today ! thanks all my friends ! (: haha . really appreciate it . & seriously , i kind of like this job alot alot . not much stress also ! & oya , thanks to my collegue for helping me re pierce my nose again at a very cheap rate ! (: hahaha . work gonna be fun though its tiring ! xD

p/s
when you appear , i felt the same thing as i did at the start
i thought i had let go .
i was wrong .

2009-01-06T08:54:00.000-08:00

Monday -

decided its time to look for a proper job already ! so monday , went for job hunt . i want give A BIG BIG THANKS TO PAUL , for accompanying the whole day to look for job man ! thanks so much , thanks for keep calling my handphone to wake me up & thanks for waiting so so so long for me ! (: haha . if not , i dont think i will ever get to find a job by myself . haha . that what friends are for man ! ^^ so , went down bugis then down to fareast to look for job . & finally , there is one shop i went to , asked me to start work immediately which is like tmr ! (: super happy la . hehs . SOOOOO , i will be working at fareast xcraft there . (: haha . 1000 per month . economy so bad , can get job this pay i think im satisfied alr la . (: hahaa . truthfully , im kind of excited to start work leh , cause like super long never work alr . haha . excited until i cant sleep . & guess what i did for the whole night ?! hahaha . i play stupid msn games with edmund ! i win him 2 game siol ! HAHA . feel so smart manxzxzxz (:

p/s
cant wait ! (:

2009-01-04T02:04:00.000-08:00

when you love someone , and when you claim you love someone , all you wanted was only to make them happy every minute . you will never do things that would cause them to be unhappy or unwilling . knowing that , what you are doing all along dosent please the person , & if you truly love her , you should change for her . if you say ' thats me , i cant change it ' you are absoultely wrong . there is nothing you cant change , its only if you want to change . so , seeing your love one unhappy with your doings , and yet you still insist on doing , is that love ? & forcing her to do things she doesnt want . saying you love the person quite alot , but are you wiling to change ? would you even give it a try ? there are many things one could do for a happy relationship . isnt it ?

p/s
think over .

2009-01-02T10:26:00.000-08:00

HM , seriously , can you stop contacting me ? didnt i make it clear that we will not be contacting anymore ? you change your hp number , i dont even give a damn . so dont call me and ask me if i got call your hp ok ? cause let me tell you , i never even bother to call you , did you realise i never even bother asking for your new number when you told me you changed number alr ? haha . seriously , you can jolly well stop contacting me la ok ? just go ahead well with your 2 girlfriends and just leave me alone and stop harrassing me pls ?

& look , you are seriously such a coward . change your blog adreess oh ? lol ! scared your girlfriend go your blog then come see my blog then know about all your wrong doings outside right ? haha . dont be such a loser la k ? dare to do , dont dare admit sia . if you so scared your girlfriend break with you , then dont do all these bad things behind her back la ! so much for saying you love her huh ? so desperate for girls ah ? then go geylang la ! there got , skinny , fat , ugly , pretty girls . so many variety for you to choose what . (: i cant wait for the day you get your retribution man .

& i promise you , i will find a way and expose all your wrong doing outside , and let your gf know what you did to her behind her back . you just wait . dont think you change your blog i cant find it . you wait & see ok .

& today , you call me for what ? call me tell me all those things again ? im sick of hearing all those things la . cause im finding you more and more disgusting , more and more hypocrite . in front of your girlfriends or your friends , shout at me those kind . then when you are alone at night , come crying to me all those , and talk so much crap . im not the least interested in hearing you say all these things ok ? you are simply so fake and disgusting i tell you . im so glad , i finally see through you and realise what kind of person you are . & let me tell you , not ony me think that way , alot of my friends think that way of you too . (: they all know what are hypocritical person you are . (: pls, reflect on everything you do . and just think how fake you are , do you even know ?

i shall stop here , writing more of you can make me vomit blood .

2009-01-02T09:37:00.000-08:00

went down ehub today around 5 . played pool , ate , and watch movie ! (: watched bed time stories . haha . funny show sia seriously . cant help but keep laughing . lol . after movie , went back home alr ! reached home around 12 . so early sia . dunno why , these few days like go back home much earlier than last time alr . haha . hope i can continue this way . hanging out late at night , seriously bad for health + will grow old faster sia ! all the dark rings come out . so uglyyyyyyy . :( :( :( :( & oya , thanks for the prepaid card ! feel so bad man seriously .

p/s
i miss talking to you somehow now !

2008-12-31T11:54:00.000-08:00

i hate you i hate you i hate youuuuuuuuuuuu !! you fucker , spoil my whole new year day ! arghhhhhhhh . pissed with you man . _|_

today was supposed to be a happy day lor ! because of you , everything is ruined :( today , woke up , went to prepare then met yiwen and his friends at blk 505 there . supposed to meet at elias mall one lor ! then after that he call me , say meet at blk 505 there . i dunno how to go sia ! then keep walking wrong way , then finally found them (: haha . surprised to see satha and andy there sia ! didnt know they were yiwen's close friend . the world is indeed small la ! haha . then after that , went down ehub , then to the mrt , down to city hall . this is the period when so many things happened ! bloody fucker , plan everything properly already , then call me say what meet at tampines then spoil all the plans . meet at city hall will die meh ?! why you must die die ask me wait for you at tampines ! want me wait so long for you at there alone ? i then dont want lor ! then after that , you also agree meet city hall alr what ? then wad for after must say dont want meet city hall again ? ask me go back tampines ? then change again say orchard ? dont take advantage of me la , ask me wait for you so long , then want me travel here and there again . super angry sia that time . then yiwen they all down there , pei me wait for that fucker , wait so long also haven come ! then make me feel so bad la . :( anyway , later , then ask me dont care him then just go marina square wait for him , ask him come find me instead . so i did that . then , that fucker give making things difficult for me ! ask me go orchard find him . HELLO ? im alr at marina square leh . cant you just come find me , instead of i keep finding you ? make me wait so many hours alr bad enough , still want order me around ? im not your maid la ! anyway , later , i gave in an just waited for him at city hall . reached there , keep shouting at me . fuck la , pushed me some more . i talk to my friend on the phone cannot meh ?! must get angry and push me in public meh ? who are you sia ! _|_

THIS IS THE WORST PART . we from city hall , i pei him travel all the way down to tampines mall , buy his stupid christmas present for his two girlfriends ( yes , he sort of two timed the girls, one example that prove he is a fucker . ) ok , then at first bluff me say what he meet the girl at tm , then ask me dont follow to pass the girl the present . fuck la , then in the first place , ask me follow you go tm for what ? no one to follow you find present then find me right ? _|_ then run all the way up , say the girl down there . then make me follow you behind . then after that go to the shop , then tell me say , " actually haven meet that girl , later then go bedok meet " you can go to hell la , purposely play with me right ? nb . then after that what ? buy present alr , then walk so fast , go take cab & go bedok find that girl to pass the present , then fucking leave me behind at tm . FUCK LA ! YOU THINK I WHAT ? I HAO XIN SEE YOU ALONE SO KE LIAN , PEI YOU GO BUY PRESENT THEN YOU LIKE THIS PLAY ME ? CB . use me only right ? you can go to hell . leave me alone at tm sia , then go find your " second girlfriend " pass her the present at bedok , then come back find me again ? DONT NEED LA PLS .

i seriously hate you now sia . hate you like fuck , fucking ruin my whole new year mood . should have listen to yiwen they all , and stay with them at marina bay instead of pei-ing you go get your present . hao xin mei hao bao sia you . this is what i get in the end ? using me only to find someone go buy present with you . please la , now i wont let you fucking use me anymore . & one more thing , go enjoy two timing your girlfriend la , hope you get aids one day . (: buy present , one shot buy for two girl sia . same present some more . seriously , i pity your gf sia , how can she not know what kind of person are you . & she is only 14 . play with a 14 year old girl ? trust me , you will have your retribution . one day , i swear i will exposed all your lies. cause i can tell you , i fucking hate you now . i dont want see you ever again . (:

HM , go fuck off & die . 18 years old still dunno how to think . play with girls ? think girls very easy to toy ? you wait and see . i will make sure you get your retribution . you use me buy present today nevermind , i dont care much also . but pls , jolly well know your limits and dont keep playing with girls and your current gf who is only 14 now . they are not your sex toy alright ? _|_ seriously hope you get aids , hiv one day . (: i hate you more than any words can decribe , cause you fucking spoil my whole new year eve . supposed to go countdown at marina bay . end up ? forget it man . fuck .

ah , im so angry ! sorry ppl , pardon me . didnt meant to use so many vulgarities one .

p/s
i regret man .
should have listen , & stayed at marina bay .
i will be much happier . hao xin mei hao bao
wad a thing , to start of one first day of new year sia .
sway . _|_

2008-12-22T22:22:00.000-08:00

today , supposed to meet glenda , sharmaine and daryl at city hall at 12 ! (: but , i woke up late , prepared and rush down city hall . reached there around 1.45 . lol . made daryl waited for me about one hour . hahaha . im sorry la ! he must be cursing me , and calling me bitch all the way in hs heart when waiting for me . hoho . any way , met them and we went down city plaza . haha . bought a beautiful kimono ! (: 26 bucks . but worth it la , cause its so nicee ! haha . glenda , bought the same kimono as me . haha ! we shall wear the same thing out tgt one day okay ! ^^ hoho . after awhile , daryl left to meet his friends to play basketball luh . ps all of us . argh . anyway , went down east coast slack , pei glenda meet her guy . haha . around 6 , left east coast and went down city hall meet ming . oya , & i went to this place today , (dont wish to say out where isit ) made me feel so embarrassed of myself la ! hope anyone will not recongnise me . felt super weird , all those tiko , ( so many of them la ) keep looking & looking . dont know look at where , look at what . -_- think they mistook me for those kind of people . argh , felt so uncomfortable . haha . glad im out of that place . hope sweet home ! (:

p/s

everything doesnt matter anymore .

it feels great now that i accept reality .

2008-12-22T20:16:00.000-08:00

went down tampines with ming to buy some presents for the gift exchange at the chalet . before meeting him , something unexpected happened . dont wish to say it here :( anyway , was so bored waiting for him at the mrt then took some random pictures to kill time -.-

hair , pls grow thicker and longer (:

so , went costa sands . kind of boring . haha . had some gift exchange . won a 20 bucks addidas voucher ! haha . went to watch midnight movie around 3.30 at ehub with ming , wai kiat , shengda , weeyang . they wanted to watch twillight , but i watched that show alr ! so in the end, watched ip man . the show was nice la ! recommended ! (: after the show , wai kiat pillion me back home . (: was shivering all the way , the night air was super cold man .

next day , went down ehub again to watch soccer match with kane , wai kiat and ming . vietnam & singapore ! lol . the three of them bet on singapore , haha . only i bet on vietnam , but i just bet with wai kiat 20 bucks vietnam will win . lol . wanted to just play for fun , as i wanted to go opposite of them ! haha . but but , in the end , vietnam won siol ! ^^ hahaha . but he haven give me my 20 bucks yet ! roars . kane was like so depressed singapore lost , as he like dump his one month salary on it . after the match , went to eat , and went back to the chalet to rest awhile before going to watch another soccer match at around 3.30 am . kane and ming bet on villereal , but they lost . seriouslt, gambling seriously kills . i wonder why people will put in so much on the teams without thinking of the negetive consequences :( went to play pool awhile . something so funny happened !

see ,
ming hit the ball & concidentally ,the two balls got stuck down there la ! lol . people around us was like laughing and laughing and taking pictures of it . hahaha .

p/s

im tired .

2008-12-19T09:42:00.000-08:00

today supposed to go escape with my sisters & cousins ! promised them i would go , but in the end , i did not turn up ! im sorry for making all of you disappointed :( part of the reason i did not go cause it was like drizzling & i wouldnt want to play those rides in such a weather . secondly , there was some pre christmas celebration with my church mates . ^^ ( abit early eh ? ) haha .

so , got ready around 6 and headed down around 6.30 to meet them at simei ! haha . some of you must be wondering , why i write down the time eh ? haha . cause , im so proud of myself that i only took half an hour to prepare today ! feels like im preparing faster and faster nowadys . (: hahaha . i rmb , how i used to make ppl wait hours for me in the past , as i would take super super long to prepare , (make here make there , spray here spray there , put here put there . ) -.- about 2 hours la ! ( im not kidding ! ) haha . & i rmb how irriated all my friends were of me :( haha . anyway , when i reached there , i think i was too early alr , & had to wait for them for like 20 minutes . i was quite irritated cause i had to stand there ALONE to wait :( & i think i dressed very ugly today , hood with three quarters and with very very little make up on ! -_- so many ppl walked past , thank god , didnt see any familar faces . haha . Then , they finally reached . feel like complaining to them at first , but didnt as i remembered how ppl waited for me for hours in the past . hoho . retribution ?

anyway , when all reached , we headed down to rebecca's house for the celebration . haha . had food , games , watch some video , and had lucky draw . oh my oh my , i have to announce to all of you something , I WON IN THE LUCKY DRAW !! ^^ hahahaha . freaking happy ! guess wad was the present ?!

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its a shopping voucher at takashimaya !

& guess how much is the voucher !
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10 bucksssssssss !! ^^

im sooooooooo happy i tell you ! all you must be thinking , " ten bucks only got so happy meh ? " of course la ! im so freaking broke now , 10 bucks too me already alot ! haha . but if the ten bucks could turn into real money even better ! ^^ hahaha . most of them went off around 11 . Then me , wai keat & ming then went down east coast to play pool awhile . haha . 12 plus , home sweet home ! (:

p/s
even if its that few minutes of conversation with you ,
you made me happy for the rest of the day .

2008-12-18T22:59:00.000-08:00

saw this thing somewhere and it find it quite interesting , & its so so so true ! decided to post it up here too . ^^

Girl: Darling WHERE ARE YOU GOING?
Guy: Ohhh. Err. I'm going to rest now. Why dear?

Girl: REST WHAT? TODAY YOU'RE FREE AND YOU DON'T WANNA MEET ME?
Guy: No lar.. Haha. I'm kinda tired now dear...

Girl: WHAT. TIRED THEN NO NEED TO SEE ME?
Guy: No lar dear... Haha.. Errm. I'll call you when I wake up?

Girl: OK LOR. YOU TRY. Why not I head down to your place? Since you're sooooooo tired?
Guy: Ohh! That'll be a good idea! Cya dear! Can't wait to hug you to sleep!

Girl: WHAT?! YOU WANNA HUG ME TO SLEEP?
Guy: Yeah dear.. Why dear? Cannot meh dear? We sleep together very nice and sweet ma.

Girl: You dare you try to hug me to sleep lor! Cya later lah!
Guy: Ok dear. Cya.

( Girl at Guy's place.)

Guy: Dear come! *yawns.
Girl: Why arh? You tired arh? Really got so tired meh?

Guy: Ya lor dear. We sleep sleep okok? *smiling at the sweetest he could go.

( Girl reluctantly went up to the bed and Guy hugged her.)

Guy: *SNORES...

Girl: STUPID DARLING. ASK ME COME TO YOUR PLACE AND SEE YOU SLEEP?! GO AND DIE!
Guy: Sorry dear. I'm really very tired. Let me sleep awhile ok?

( Girl stomped out of the house and complained to her whole load of good friends about Guy.)

hahaha . aint it true ? im sure many of you out there experience this kind of thing before !

Most of the girls must be thinking , " wtf , sleep got more important than me meh ? i come all the way here alr , just to see you sleep , i no matter how tired also still will come find you , pei you one lor , why cant you just do the same ?! kao . "

Whereas , most of the guys must be thinking , " knn , i already so so tired already . let me sleep also must kp so much ? tmr go find you also same ma . understand abit la . "

haha ! see how different the girl & the guys thinking are . small things to the guy may mean big things to those girls ! in a relationship , many always think why cant the other party just understand me ? but they didnt realise that , they too , did not put in alot of effort to understand the other party . true ?

so , in order for a relationship to work out properly , giving in & understanding is very important .

p/s
learn to love the imperfect person perfectly .

2008-12-15T00:54:00.000-08:00

" If you love somebody, let them go,
for if they return, they will be always yours.
And if they don't, they never will ."

2008-12-14T22:30:00.000-08:00

was trying out my friends camera flash .
so bright . -.-

have been out with friends last few days , & im seriously super broke . urgh , i need money desperately la ! going to get a job soon ! ^^ christmas coming , was looking forward to celebrating it actually , but guess theres no need to do it alr . & i still remember , my home-cooked noodle with chicken and the shirts we saw on the blogshop . D: gone . anyway , i may be applying back to poly next year . When one study too much , you just want to stop studying and play everyday . But when one play too much , you just feel like going back to study . life without anything but fun seems so stressful now .

p/s
even if its within that few seconds ,
i hope the person you are thinking & missing of is me .
cause im doing the same for you .

2008-12-12T21:47:00.000-08:00

argh , i cut my fringe siol ! :( was a last minute decision . its so much shorter now ! like can see my eyes alr . ^^ hahaha . hopes , it grow longer faster though , cause im not used to having my fringe so short ! :(

p/s
would you care ? & still so concern ?
would you tell me , im your everything ?

2008-12-08T23:52:00.000-08:00

Libra can fall in love easily, and once in love, Libra is very deeply in love indeed. It is extremely hard for a Libra to get over a love relationship and Libra will almost never break a relationship.

If Libra finds a partner who can reciprocate her/his love, then this will become a serious lifetime commitment full of loyalty and passion.
However, if a relationship is not based on mutual love, Libra will eventually leave.

Libra doesn't like it when he/she is blackmailed through his/her feelings. Libra can be moody and can easily be offended, but really enjoys geting to know the partner and asking their opinion on many things.
Do not mention your opinion about Libra without thinking about it because they can be easily upset.

If Libra falls in love, this makes her/him very happy and free because Libra needs love very much. If love doesn't work out, Libra will suffer very visibly and openly admitting it. At the same time, it is easy to get him/her back.

For the Libra, marriage and mutual love are most important and both partners should strive to make this happen. Libra truly loves to have children and showers them with affection and teachings about life.

2008-12-08T23:04:00.000-08:00

to be remembered , to be loved , & to be forgotten .

When i first saw you, I was afraid to meet you.
When I met you I was afraid to know you.
When I knew you I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.

あなたがいなくて寂しいです

2008-12-06T10:52:00.000-08:00

meet up with church friends to have dinner at east point today ! haha . its been long time since i last saw all of them . cause i have not been going to church service lately ! after dinner , went down east coast to play pool ! haha . went coffee bean to buy a drink , at there , i saw something super super super super cuteeeeeeeee ! ^^ hahaha . cannot tahan , & i bought it ! the cute thing cost three bucks la ! :( anyway , its so cute la , so it doesnt matter ! :D haha .

& took picture of the cute little thing !
my ginger bread man ! ^^

(adorable right ?! )

( shes bigger than my hand la ! )

p/s
when i say i love you ,
i meant it totally .

2008-12-03T10:57:00.000-08:00

went out with lovely girlfriend today ! haha . had fun with her with all the little talks & laughters ! :D love you sweety , though you made me walked alot today finding your dress ! went down her house slack afterwards !

pictures !

p/s
never say goodbye if you still wanna try .
never give up if you feel you can still carry on .
never say you dont love a person anymore if you cant let go .

2008-11-18T08:12:00.000-08:00

im going holiday sooooooon !

in a few hours time . haha
will update about my trip when im back :D
miss me people !

p/s
i love you , love you love you love you love youuuuu .
forever ! <3>